I’m extremely pissed that he hasn’t “stepped up to the plate.”

Now, ask me why this is what I thinking when I *should* be on my way to a job interview…


I have an interview next week as a field auditor. Sounds, um, interesting. I guess they hire people on a part-time basis to go to stores and make sure that … well, I have no idea, really. But it still sounds fun. (Someone who has worked in retail care to tell me what “scam” I’m getting myself into???)

Also, went to school to take a more accurate assessment test. The extremely surprising

1. Transportation – Airline Pilot, Truck Driver, Taxi Driver, Chauffeur, Ambulance Driver, Air Traffic Controller, (Yeahhh! Like I want all that stresssssssss!!) Delivery Truck Driver, etc.

2. Information Technology – Systems Analyst, Database Administrator, Web Designer, Computer Programmer, User Support Analyst, IT Disaster Recovery Specialist, Telecommunications Analyst, Broadband Network Installer, etc.

3. Production Services – Punch Press Operator, (Hello, daddy..) Assembler, Freight Inspector, Baker, Mail Handler, Shipping/Receiving Clerk, Highway Maintenance Worker, House Cleaner, Food Service Worker, Packager, etc.

4. Retail Sales – Absolutely NOT. (Auctioneer, Wait Staff, Cashier, Sales Associate, etc.)

5. Personal Caring Services – OK, been there, kind of like it…not really…moving on… (Nursing Aide, Counselor, Mental Health Ade, Physical Therapist, etc.)

6. Medical Sciences – I’m like the science, but I’m not “good enough.” (Surgeon, Dental Assistant, Dentist, Nutritionist, etc.)

7. Skilled/Mechanical/Technical – Funny, these were my “top choices” in the last assessment test, now there sitting at the bottom of the pit. Again, nothing on here that I would want to attempt. (Roofer, Bricklayer, Landscape Worker, Welder, Auto Mechanic, etc.)

Interesting. Honestly, I’ve learned A LOT about myself in the past few hours by taking this new test. One question on the test stood out to me:

Do you let your heart lead your mind, or do you let your mind lead your heart? :-/ Duh. *huge sigh*

Paycheck? School? More Therapy?

I thought today would have been better. I made plans to meet someone, and then came the “family emergency” excuse. Just tell me you don’t want to see me… :'(

I called up work yesterday during the shift change…and you wouldn’t believe who answered. Cindy, the manager who turned her back on me. The manager I’ve left three messages for finally, FINALLY gave me the number to payroll.

I call payroll. No answer. So I called again this morning and left a message. It’s been thirty-eight minutes and I haven’t received a call back. I’ve been in the payroll office before, and it’s not like you’re so busy you can’t answer a “question about my paycheck.”

I thought this was funny: I got a postcard in the mail from the ex-employer’s union telling me that I’m invited to go to the meeting. Hmm, maybe I should do that… *cough*

I had some problems with school a few days ago. I filled in a late withdrawal form. Hopefully my request will be approved. If it’s not, I’m going back to talk with Maxine, the woman who sets the customized training up. My mom told me yesterday that it doesn’t seem like the program is designed for someone like me; someone who doesn’t have any experience driving. But I’m thinking, “everyone has to start somewhere, right?

I have a job interview on Tuesday for a temporary agency doing some typing and paper shuffling. Yeah, that’s “exactly” what I want…not. I just have to let them know I have an appointment on the 16th. I’m going to see a new counselor that specializes working with young adults in “complex psychological trauma” and get this: co-dependency and parenting skills training. All in a “Christian faith-based” approach, if requested.

Yes, this should be LOVELY once everything is laid out on the table. At least I know she’s there not to judge me.

And when I call the medical insurance company to get a confirmation number so my first three visits are free, they can’t authorize it because I don’t have my father’s SSN. Um, wake up! We don’t live in a world anymore where people are should be identified in that manner. (Just got a call back in the middle of writing that last sentence and was asked for the ID number of our card. That number didn’t work either.) I remember when I was with Jameson, I made him run back out to the truck to get my purse because my father’s SSN was listed on the insurance card. We needed that so I could go with him — all that nifty stuff required for an insurance policy. I shredded that insurance card about a month ago when I traded my mom’s old one when they got the new ones at the beginning of the year.

….OK finally got that insurance stuff figured out – all set.

Speaking of insurance policies…I should change the beneficiary on my life policy so it’s not Jameson. Hm, I bet he didn’t know he was a beneficiary since July of 2005. Actually, I don’t even think my parents know I have a life insurance policy. I don’t think they’d appreciate it, though…me having one and having the ex get the benefit.

It’s weird sitting here, taking my hands and trying to push up my glasses so they’re sitting in the proper position on my nose. But, wait! There’s nothing there. I’m not wearing my glasses as often. And there’s a perk! The rash on my face has almost disappeared! 😀 But I refuse to believe there’s something on my glasses that was causing my face to break out in a rash. I suppose it might be true, though, seeing as some people get rashes on their chin if they use the telephone a lot.

TDTG Updates; Work Issues

It was extremely warm and sunny out earlier this week. Spring must be here because I got that rash all over my face, arms, and hands again. It itched a lot and looks horrible. Mix it with fifth wheel grease…and you have a new form of body make up! :-p I come home looking like my dad now. Kind of nice…kind of not nice.

I almost quit school. Didn’t go yesterday, left early today. Just extremely nervous because we’re going to start going down the county roads. Making a left hand turn across a two lane divided road and dealing with a “lovely” intersection, complete with a rail road crossing isn’t my idea of a first run! Or ever! Well, like everything during the past two weeks, I’m sure my mind will change. A lot. I shouldn’t think too far ahead though because tomorrow is my pre-trip inspection test. And if I get sections two and three, I’ll come home extremely pissed. Nobody wants the shitty job of going under the tractor AND trailer with instructor to point out stuff. Especially if you have no idea where the hell it is. He’s making us touch it… Thank you very much, can’t I point instead?

There’s always the joke that since I’m the woman, I can change my mind when and however many times I choose. I tend to agree. 🙂 In the past week, I’ve spent about thirty minutes behind the wheel and on the range. The yard exercises were introduced last week, and I haven’t even touched them yet. We’re being tested in two weeks, part of the CDL test, but there’s no way I’ll have them down by then. …especially when an instructor isn’t around to assist you!

What’s this, a post in the work category?? I’m getting ready to cut my head off. And kill my manager because my home telephone number has been blocked. Hey, I’m not going to “forget” about my two paychecks that are now well overdue! It’s come to the point where I’m using change to pay for miscellaneous expenses. I have a credit card payment due, student loan payment due, and a medical bill due. God help me if I get a letter in the mail from the clinic. Especially if it’s marked…